It's him. I'ts because of him I cried twice tonight.

I posted on my wall :

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken?
Do you mean,
Do you mean what you say?

But I'd rather you be mean
Than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth
Than have to say goodbye
And I'd rather take a blow
At least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow
Now baby don't you break my heart



But when I can't take it anymore...

I'd just post this..


hey, i was trying to tell u the truth. But u don't understand. I was really mad at u. Then u misunderstood. I tried to explain it to u. But what did i get back from you?
*blank. DAMN. now u make me feel like it's my fault. urghhhhh.
tolonglaa phm.

Okay okay. Maybe I should just post/edit ; I rather tell you truth than lies.

Thank god my cousin helped me. But this problem is not settle yet.
My sister's boyfriend's friend give me ideas to tell that jerk. Well, he's not fully a jerk. But in theory, yes, he is.
My neighbour's ex-girlfriend told me to be patient. But i didn't take it so I ruined it. I guess we just meant to be friends for only 1 week then. Never mind. But this problem stuck in my head. Hmm.
I'll figure t his one out.

p/s : please friend, i care about you but, I know I was wrong to be disrespectful for your feelings. I'm so sorry dude.

New Friend =D

On Feb 15, 8:36pm -
I update my status on facebook. Then there's a boy commented my status. He really want to know why i fell like that so i told him about it. Full Story. It was nice to have him around but, can't compete my best friend for life, of course. (lol)
He liked my old status about a song i mean, lyrics. Well, not so old, really.
We were chatting like 7 hours. Almost. Crazy, right ? I don't mind. It's great spending time with him. Eventhough it's on IM. This Saturday, my classmate really excited and madly crazy excited want to introduce me to him and vice versa. I was like, WHAT ? NO WAY. My friends think that me and him are in love. Are they crazy? We only know each other like A DAY. We barely know each other. Never met before eventhough we're study in the same school. =='
Malu lah I. Mannn. But i'll cover my shyness. Haha.

17 Feb, 9:30pm -
I online on facebook and wait for him to online. I waited. I wait for him like 3 hours.
=.=

18 Feb, 12:04am -
He said "hi" on IM. But i didn't reply because I fell asleep. Gah ! =='

18 Feb, 01:30am -
I awake. I looked at my laptop and saw he said hi and a smile on 12:04am. And he's OFFLINE. Mann.. I was like, "why did I fell asleep? now that he's offline. what a waste of time i waited for him to online. mann. And one more thing, my classmate IM me and said "your boy is on the line!" duhh.
After a few minutes, he online ! Yippie. haha. At first, he said hi but i didn't reply yet because i was kind of sleepy. Then i replied.
We chatted for 2 hours and 30 minutes. Not enough. Because I talked about a person who is pretty evil and girly. duhh.
To my surprise , he said he'd had fun chatting with me. Yeah, right.
After he offline, i was alone. Again. hmmm. Never mind. I'm going to sleep now. :DD

Enchanted'

There I was again tonight
Forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place

Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered "Have we met?"
Across the room your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up
2 AM, who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
And now I'm pacing back and forth
Wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say "hey"
It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that
This was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name
Until I see you again
These are the words I held back
As I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you know
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

Am I Ready For Love

Sometimes I wonder how it's gonna feel
Will my first love be true and real?
Will I be ready when my heart starts to fall?
What will I do when my love comes to call?
And my daddy tells me that I light up his world
Everyday he says, darling you're my best girl
He tried to teach me from the very start
The meaning of love so nobody breaks my heart

Will my love come in a bowl of fire?
Will it be filled with hope and desire?
Will my love come in a pouring rain?
Am I ready for the joy, am I ready for the pain
Am I ready for the boy, am I ready for love

I know I'm not a little girl anymore
Cause I'm feeling things I've never felt before
Sweet sensations and anticipations
Calling commotion to my emotions
And I hear the words my daddy said to me
He said be true 2 yourself & keep your spirit free
And love will find you one way or another
Be good to yourself and be good to each other

Will my love come in a bowl of fire?
Will it be filled with hope and desire?
Will my love come in a pouring rain?
Am I ready for the joy, am I ready for the pain
Am I ready for the boy, am I ready for love

It's a run around the world
And it's moving so fast
Though I wanna find
A love that's gonna last
A love so strong
That I can withstand
The weight of the world
In the palm of its hand

Will my love come in a bowl of fire?
Will it be filled with hope and desire?
Will my love come in a pouring rain?
Am I ready for the joy, am I ready for the pain
Am I ready for the boy, am I ready for this game
Am I ready for the kiss, am I ready for the stars
Am I ready for the bliss, am I ready for love

Unintended

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
He could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you